Dear daddy...

No matter where I go in life. Who I get married to. How much time I spend with my friends and how much I love my boyfriend...

You'll always be my number one man..

Sincerely,

Your little girl :')

End of all

3 tahun bukan waktu yang singkat untuk kita saling mengenal satu sama lain.. Tawa kebahagiaan dan airmata kesedihan mengiringi langkah kami berdua. Saat dimana kita berdua harus tegar melawan setiap penolakan yang ada dalam hubungan kami.. Dimana kita harus terpisahkan antara pulau jawa dan sulawesi, saat saya pergi untuk melanjutkan sekolah di Jakarta dan kamu tinggal untuk mencari pekerjaan untuk membangun mimpi-mimpii kami berdua untuk membangun hari esok yang lebih cerah..Hari ini, pagi ini.. Kita bukan lagi terpisahkan oleh pulau tapi kita terpisahkan untuk selamanyaaaaa.. Hanya satu pesanku untukmu, hargai perasaan wanitamu nanti dan hanya cukup saya yang merasakan pahitnya caci-makian yg keluar dari mulutmu dan luka lebam dimuka yg oleh pukulanmu.. Entah itu siapa, sayangi dan hargai perasaan wanitamu nanti.. 

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded. That for me it isn't over. Never mind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too. "Don't forget me," I begged. "I'll remember," you said. "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead." Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead. Nothing compares. No worries or cares. Regrets and mistakes. They are memories made.
Adele - Someone Like You

Trimakasih untuk 3 tahun yang sangat indah.. Trimakasih telah menjadi bagian dalam hidupku.. Sorry belum bisa menjadi yang terbaik..

I'm mad at myself, not you...

I'm mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, for making you my life, depending on you, wasting my time on you, thinking about you, following you, changing for you, forgiving you, wisihing for you, dreaming of you, and most of all...

For not hating you which I know I should....

but I can't

DON'T PANIC..!!!!!!

No, really, it's going to be okay. Take a deep breath, right now, someone else is feeling the same way, the particulars are yours, but your problems are the world's. Does that make you feel better? someone else understands perfectly how you feel. More people than you'd think, actually. So don't keep it secret, reach out, trust people you shouldn't, find the people you should. These are your prime suffering years. Make memories, make mistakes, don't think too much. It'll all come out in the wash. Do you want to know something, though? nothing you do now matters but the memories. That's liberating, too. So tell her that she's beautiful, and ask to hold his hand. Don't tolerate people you hate, don't be afraid of the people you love. Because you'll never know what's going on in their head till you ask. Don't panic, okay? but here's another secret. Someone's thinking of you. Even though you think you could that disappear and no one would notice. Someone thinks you're beautiful. I know I do. So when you fall asleep, holding your blankets close and wishing they were a body, know someone else is doing the same, and they wish more than anything that they were holding you. Because there are soulmates, they exist! I said don't panic, but somewhere, there's someone whose body was made to fit yours. Your life is worth something, you are living for a reason. Your problems are shared, but your talents are not. you can offer an insight that no one else can, you can change something that no one else can, you can do things that the world desperately needs in a way that no one else can. But don't panic, because you've got your whole life.